It's been three months and two days since my last post and, again, it feels weird trying to come up with a blog entry after a hiatus. I've about half a dozen anime titles that I've yet to share my thoughts on.
And the reason for my recent absence?
Well, any semblance of a regular writing schedule (as well as the regular viewing schedule that provide the topics of my posts) is bound to go out the window when you have a baby to take care. I had a few posts that were scheduled to be published post delivery and was able to squeeze in a few more when my mom was in town (hooray for first time grandmothers who don't want to let go of babies). But afterwards, writing fell by the wayside as I tried to keep up with a baby's ever changing needs and moods. It doesn't help that she also didn't like the sound of the keyboard, and if I can't type fast, I can't keep up with my train of thought and writing isn't as satisfying.
After three months, I realized that I missed blogging. Coupled with the fact that the jellybean and I have finally reached a routine that, while still varying at times, is easier for me to adapt to. Also, once I've realized that I was actually terrified of taking care of a baby and acknowledged that, while it's really terrifying, it doesn't have to be a terrible experience. I found myself going with the flow of motherhood with more ease. It also helps a lot that she looks like this.
So, here we are. I still can't type fast, nor loud as I'm apt to do, but I find that there're little pockets of time I can work with. I also developed a deeper appreciation for caffeine, though this might not be as good a news as it should be, but... coffee, the good kind even if it's instant and not brewed, just makes the lack of sleep all the more bearable.
They were right. You just need to survive the first three months and you'll be fine. At least, until the first tooth is about to come out and that's a whole other thing I'm utterly unprepared for.
For now, it's still a challenge to watch what I want to write about, with limited time and the fact that it's hard to understand what you're watching at a volume level that won't disturb a baby's sleep (I am told wireless headsets will remedy this... I will find out next week). So, I guess I'll take it one post at a time.
Oh, and it also helps that I updated the blog's look. It didn't help my writing slump when the blog seemed so.... dated. I just had to spend every free minute trying to figure out how to understand HTML. I still can't write it, but I have since learned to make revisions to help me prettify What should I write about again?.
It was fun accomplishing something new.
So, I fervently pray that this slump in writing can be done away with. Though, I know that missing a few weeks won't bother me as much in the future. I just hope you're still around to read what I have to write about when I get to it once again. I can at least assure you that I will always return. :)Labels: Blogging, Jellybean, Motherhood, Musings
